A So(m)bering Effect

Well...I learned why she broke up with me, the girlfriend of 7 months.

A lot of crap seemed to have rained down upon her and she felt that she should protect me by pushing me away, rather than letting me to endure it along with her for support. We're thinking about getting back together but honestly I don't fully trust that she won't do this again, I've told her plainly that "Hey, I'm not a child anymore, I can take care of myself and if I won't be dragged through the "mud" as you say by the problems in your life, I'll be helping you of my own free will."

Even so, I think with how messed up she feels she is and how things went near the end of our first relationship together, I don't hold much hope for this one. I'm not going to linger on the past, but I am going to learn from it and go into this expecting nothing but to make her smile even if it can only last a moment.

I'm at a moment in my life right now where I've been changing things around and within me, hopefully for the better. I have to not look at this as a stepping stone to a good thing but merely more of a "What happens will happen" situation else I might get depressed go back to my old ways of doing things. One of her friends has already warned me of her strange behavior lately and how she might be indecisive and fickle.

I might just be setting myself up to fail, but I'd be happier failing at this than succeeding in a lot of other things.